Friday afternoons

You how sometimes there's this thing thats incessantly nagging at you, at the back of your head. No matter what you do, no matter how you try and run, it never goes away. I think I've used up all my energy on trying to make it go away, I've sang to myself, exercised myself to the brink of I-don't-know-where, I've talked to myself, I've tried writing to myself, I've tried I think almost every possible method - It just doesn't want to say goodbye. I think it's quite sad and it sucks that it's still there.

I really don't like what-ifs. I really don't like it when people don't tell me things especially when it concerns me. Now, doesn't that sound very self-centred? Yes I think it does. But I think there are things that you just have to know. I just think that there are things that have to be told. Things that have to said.

The other thing that I don't really like either..is to have expected and consequently disappointed. It sucks. I think I've made countless entries with regards to expectations and dashed hopes. And the saddest thing is that, I keep falling into it all over again. It's like I never learn. I never learn to not expect from people who haven't shown that I can put some hope in them. Maybe it's some weakness of mine - i just cannot handle another. Yes. I really can't.

In any case, those things aside, I witnessed one of the most breathtaking sunset's I've ever seen so far. In one of the most unexpected places too - the glass walkway linking Myer's different buildings. It was orange and blue, with the right trees in the right place, just up the street. It was gorgeous, splendid and absolutely amazing. One day though, maybe there'll be someone who might appreciate it to share it with me. just at that right moment. that precious precious moment.