I've forgotten

I've forgotten really how sometimes it really is just to do something for yourself - be totally, insanely selfish and just get something done for ME. I've forgotten how sometimes the best way to chill and let all ya troubles ebb away is to sit down staring out at the street, watching the world go by.

I miss coffee at HV with Becky and Glowy, my sisters, Jon sometimes too, Yan1 and Tsin, Mon because silence was and I hope still is never awkward between us. We'll just sit and watch the world go by and sometimes, there might be a shriek or a giggle depending on what goes by. Ha. Becky and Glowy's were always filled with giggles and big shouts of "Noooooooooooo" ha. That I remember. It's good to just be quiet and not have to worry about what's expected of you. It's good to breathe.

I like this because it seems that this is the only time my emotions don't go bonkers and my mood swings go from one extreme to the other. Honestly, they're so bad that just a train ride to school can cause me to switch between being depressive to happy and back. It's quite crazy and scary at the same time.

Exercise though makes all the bad vibes disappear apparently. ha.

Oh glowy's coming and it's going to be nice seeing her. I can't wait. It's back to school again. Hope everyone's good - i'm loading photos for the Yarra Valley trip up - next stop GREAT OCEAN ROAD, who's game??

i miss home.