My deepest apologies

Dear all,

I really do apologise for swearing so much lately. Especially whilst blogging, as much as it relieves the culminating amount of frustration, anger and pressure that's building inside me, I understand that firstly, it does not make for a good read and secondly, it's quite outta my character. I'm really sorry and I promise that I will try not to do it anymore.

Please understand though that the last few days has been really tumultuous both physically and emotionally. It all started when I fell down the first time on the big hill I had to overcome, suddenly self-control didn't matter any longer (hee.) and furthermore, since sunday I've been feeling like this decapitated chicken, disabled because all this injuries that I have resulting in a very un-efficient use to precious time because I do things super, duper slowly. As for the emotional side of it all, there was the whole cycling thing, bawling my eyes out as I feared for the worst, plus a bit of this things and those other things.

Therefore, even though I acknowledge that the above reasons aren't good excuses to my swearing (god forbid that it'll ever become a habit - i'll have to wash my mouth with soap!) and that there definitely are better words to express greatness/scrumptiousness/frustration/anger/blah. blah. blah (sorry tsin, I know I sweared in the email to you as well:* sorry daddy too!), please understand that I'm feeling rather sorry for myself at the moment. Although, I do promise that as of tommorrow, i'll wipe that word of my lips and use AYAM GORENG!! instead.

- yan.