A state of DIRE confusion

Car or no car? To buy or not buy?

There was this little part of me that had begun thinking that I really was on my way to growing up, to handling and making big decisions on my own, but then last night I got reminded that I'm perhaps not ready to grow up yet, because I cried when things weren't going the way that it should have, because I wished that my parents would make the decision for me, because after the whole bout of tears I went to stuff myself with chocolate and consequently, I'm feeling sick now.

Where are you dear friend, coz' I so wish I had a word from you now to cheer me up.