Just one song

"I look forward to having the one person to pour my heart out to and know that he will accept me for everything that i am. and that i wouldnt feel i have to hide ANYTHING. i could share every single detail about i've done, where i've been, what i've thought - if i wanted to. it's not really the act of doing it, but the knowledge of knowing that someone like this actually exists in my life. " - Gloria (sorry luo po, i'll bake lemon meringue pie for taking ya quote. yeeps. without permission)

In my life, or perhaps in these few short years that the problems and issues of BGR had slowly found its way into my once "one-less-thing-to-worry-about-life", there was just this one guy whom I felt that way about. That above way, so aptly described by my luo po. But in some strange way, as much as we were great friends and I knew that I had feelings for him, circumstances didn't allow it happen. Wrong choices I made on my part that obviously, messed everything up. Even the friendship, now that I think about. I lost this friend for a while.

Not too long ago though, I found this friend again. And I'm glad I did. No one else ever wrote a song. But knowing circumstances, things would not work out. Probably not now, maybe not ever. This is but one of the banes that makes going away harder, not because you cant be in a relationship, but simply because, when you find old friends, it's time for you to go away again.

I don't know about everyone else, but for me it's always the case and since I left, that reality has always presented itself without fail. And sometimes, it really hurts. Really hurts. I've always said that I missed seeing my sisters grow up, I think I miss seeing my friends grow too.

Don't ask.