Christmas, boxing day

I asked my luo po on friday night if there would ever be one day where christmas would lose its meaning for all of us...and I frankly as much as i don't want it to, i agree with her. I think it would. It would probably just become another holiday, it's already starting to lose its meaning. sighs.

i blew alot of money at the mango sale the other day. ALOT OF MONEY. oh well. Sorry i'm in depression again.

Spiritual holiday. sighs. Time to head back to purgatory.

I still found a beautiful song though...

Rows ad floes of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
ANd feather canyons ev'rywhere
I've looked at clouds that way
But now they only block the sun
They rain and snow on ev'ryone
So many things I would have done
But clouds got in my way

(*) I've looked at clouds from both sides now
From u and down, and still somehow
It's cloud illusions I recall
I really don't know clouds at all

Moons and junes and ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way you feel
As ev'ry fairy tale comes real
I've looked at love that way
But now it's jus another show
You leave 'em laughing when you go
And if you care, don't let them know
Don't give yourself away

(*) I've looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
It's love's illusions I recall
I reall don't know love at all

Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say I love you right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I've looked at life that way
But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads, they say I've changed
Well, something's lost, but something's gained
In living ev'ry day

(*) I've looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all
I've looked at life from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It's life illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all

- Both sides now, from the Love Actually soundtrack