Maxed out

I maxed out on breakfast today. I think I ate what a normal person would eat in a day I think. My body's in a bit of a weird, strange automatic state. I'm eating not really coz' i'm hungry, but really rather because my mind's telling me I have to. I'm afraid if I don't eat, I'll faint..especially when I think about having to walk from everyday from uni, when I think about the fact that I'm now home alone and if something should happen to me, I'll probably be left there for the next few hours. These thoughts scare me sometimes. But then the problem is when I do start, I eat alot. I don't know. Maybe my bio clock's going a bit wonky, been pushing myself hard this week. Hopefully it'll be better in the next.

I'm exhausted. Tired of going to uni too. hanging by the moment.

I had a panic attack last night as well. Well close to it. Either that, or I possibly almost had a heart attack. I don't really understand what exactly my mind's comprehending at the moment. It's like being torn between whether I'm entitled to feel tired and be allowed to complain about it. Considering that so much other people are probably having alot more work to do as compared to me, there are probably alot of people out there working even harder than I am. How and Who am I to complain??

Take me away for this moment,
Beyond the clouds and to the skies
To gaze upon the world below
Possibly, a moment of bewilderment would put everything in place
To everything right, where it once was.