HOW??!!!

I'm tired today, ok wait not just tired, but very tired. I need to go for a foot spa when I get back home, my feet are taking a beating from all the walking and running that i've been doing. I don't feel right. I'm feeling a little outta this world, and maybe, possibly a little sick. I don't know. Maybe thinking too much, or possibly coz' I went to the gym today. Gave my body a beating.

A friend of mine asked me in return for a favour to promise to not go clubbing or get myself drunk when I get home. It doesn't sound like much I know, and it's also not that I cannot leave without going for Mambo either. But I really just don't understand why some people make such a big deal outta with it. I really personally don't think clubbing is a bad thing. I don't think people have to worry too incessantly about it. If it's just for the music and the dancing, it's alright right?

what do you think?

I know though, it's for my good. Getting smashed too many times it's not good either. Getting smashed to try and forget your troubles is even worse I know, but does it warrant complete abstinence? I know it's all to protect me, but I reckon that I know i'm old enough to protect myself know what I mean?

I'm not perfect. I have my weaknesses and strengths like every other person. I space out at the weirdest of times. Like every other person, I give excuses when I don't really wanna hurt another. And like every other person, there are times when I don't have the "power" to keep my promises no matter how much I try. I fail.

Does it make me any the less trustworthy?
Any more difficult for anyone to put their faith in me?
Suddenly, it seems so.

Please tell me.

Joel: Waiting sucks. But it seems that it's the best and only thing we can possibly do when we are at the mercy of others. Still though, I'll go to Shenton Way to visit you ok?? =)