Exorcising past demons

My mum and dad used to always say that you're past would always back and haunt you. The bible made it a point to re-iterate that it's important to confess your sins daily, because unconfessed sins would come back and irk your consciousness.

I had to deal with my past today.

Deal with my incessant, manical, rantings on someone who didn't deserve any bit of it. Who, well just happened to be there at the right time, who happened to have to see me everyday. He didn't deserve any one bit of it, my depression does not negate or justify my actions. I'm sorry.
I really am. If I could, I wouldn't have done it in the first place. I'm God's child and I didn't show any bit of being his child. I'm a human yes, with my weaknesses. But being a child of God ought to make me stronger than that, more tolerant and more patient.
At this point of time, saying sorry probably isn't enough. But that's the best that I can muster. I apologise. For being such a BITCH, for not being an example, or a testimony.

Thank you for understanding. But I need to get over it myself for awhile. Sorry for failing you God. Sorry for doing all those things that disappointed you.

I've learnt that, your past will always come back to haunt you. So, it's important to be accountable for your own actions. Because they'll hurt the very people you end up treasuring and being great friends with.

Must I?

Do I have to hold true?

Do I have to be true?

What's done today, will be forgotten tommorrow, or so I thought.

It's fleeting afterall.

It never is. It will never end.

But face it, confess it,

To get it over and done with.