Have I become too comfortable where i am?

Somehow or rather, i know i'm fortunate, i know i'm really lucky, i know that i ought to be thankful for the things that given to me, for the chances that have been placed in front of me..yet why are there times that i still feel so uncontented. How come there are wants that will never be fulfilled?? I ought to be thankful

1. that i live in a safe place
2. that i've got a nice house to live in
3. that i come from a complete family
4. that i've got friends who love me
5. that i got to live out my dreams
6. that i can go shopping when i want to
7. that i've won't go hungry
8. that i'm not computer illiterate
9. that i've got a future
10. that i'm free to do whatver i want
11. that i've got cool parents who love me so much that they'll sacrifice so much
12. that i've got warm clothing
13. that i can enjoy coffee. BRaNDED AND IN LUXURY.
14. that i've got breakfast everyday.
15. that i know how to love

There are people out there who fight for what they believe in, in the cold, being weary and suceptible to death. Who are we to judge really??

i reckon it's because i have taken for granted all these things, and i might not have realised it till it was too late. till it was taken from me, till i could never possess it any longer. i spoke to Jon today about the Russian children hostages, the war on terrorism and a whole lot of other things. I wish i could do something for all these people,, something different. i don't wanna raise funds for them, i don't wanna write a book. i wanna do something different but what?!! would people wanna hear what i have to say? Would working for the UN help?

i don't know.

I sometimes wish that i didn't read so much. didn't stumble upon so many of these articles by people who dared to speak up. It's hard to take all these issues at face value any longer. what seems right is not any longer. Would we be able to strip away the facades, the masks that hide all the true intentions? Would the "real" voices of the "liberated" be heard?? I suddenly no longer really understand the word "liberated" anymore. It seems tainted now, tainted by political causes, tainted by revenge, tainted by all sorts of things that make the wrong appear right.

We need to strip it bare sometimes.

i'm sorry i cannot articulate myself properly. was thinking about it through dinner, through walking through coles, through my ride home, through reading history, through reading the news, through the conversation i had with Jon, through the past week where i just blew more than 50 bucks on clothes that i "might" need. is it all that neccessary in the end? i really don't know. i really don't.

God never did say that he wouldn't bless us with extra. just let it sink in for abit.
i need to learn to be content. to be happy. with or without the sun.