Thursday

More than half of my thursday's over.. still no calls for any jobs..i'm disappointed. i wonder if i begin working next time, would i have to wait around all day for jobs to come around? it's like pitting yourself against everyone else for that coveted chance. is it so hard to make yourself stand out from everyone else? i don't know. i never had much luck with jobs..i wonder if this time it'll turn out different.. i really would like one.

My throat's sore, still sore..i woke up feeling woozy and i did a very brilliant thing. i finished all my fat free sugar covered fizzy fish from Marks and Spencers, which was really silly coz' I knew it'll aggravate my throat [IT DID!] and now i'm feeling even worse. i feel like i'm going to run a fever and maybe pass out in the process or something like that. wanted to go for a run, but i don't really dare to..furthermore it's raining outside. i might go to the Monash gym next week though..i miss running in the gym..i've got this fascination with it. i always feel more adrenaline pumping when running in the gym than anywhere else. i could just go on forever and forever in the treadmill. so i hope i get well soon.

i just read in the news last night that some poor old man suffering from schizophrenia went around stabbing and slashing kids in a kindergarden in China. I say "poor" old man, because i wonder mental illness is a defence in China, if it isn't he'll probably either get jailed for life or get charged with manslaughter which means jail too and he'll probably die in there. i mean i do sympathise with the kids who got hurt as well. It's like one bad apple, destroys the whole basket of good apples know what i mean? no one's going to give all this "mentally ill" people chances again. Nothing in the newspaper reported whether there was some aggravating factor. it left out all the stuff like that. i jus think that sometimes we gotta weigh both sides of an argument, look at both sides, instead of just judging things based on those who are suffering. i'm really convinced that we choose what we want to know, we consciously choose what we would like to consider and all those other things. maybe it's time we gotta learn to think harder. spare some considerations.


salmon fish doesn't work in the microwave.