sighs..

i've got this confounding sense of loss embedded so deep that i've been crying and crying and crying for 2 days already. i don't know why but i just can't seem to shake it off..it seems that every little things can trigger off a torrent of tears. In fact it's so bad that i don't even dare to mention the word 'homesick'. i think this 'sense of loss' is similar to the times when i was a little girl and i would cry when my parents would have to attend late Sunday night family dinners, and leave me home alone. Except that, that sense of loss would be cleared up immediately when i heard the key in the lock..so it's ironical now that it is I who chose to leave..not them.

it doesn't help that the winter in Melbourne feels like Tassie when i visited it last year with my cousins and sisters. I was just reminiscing about it last night, and i had a good laugh coz' the only difference with everything was that i didn't have to take out the trash for people, kill ants and then walk to school.

anyhow, it's good coz' this week's been a REALLY REALLY slow week, so I can just come home everyday, lie in bed and sulk, or rather sob my eyes out. The Babu-Sing leaves me alone, and i'm really thankful that he's around, coz' he knows that i'm not alright..as for the BUMBLING IDIOT it just can't get to his thick skull..which is quite strange really.

- overseas from coast to coast
to find a place i love the most
to see you once again my love -