S.U.N.D.AY.

i was spacing out again, halfway through psych..and i saw this. I'm giving thanks.

view from my window 


i got hit yesterday by a wave of nostalgia, a wave of home sickness and yes, i got attacked by the sleep monster as well. i think there's something wrong with me, something wrong with the way that i'm using my time. I'M WASTING IT REALLY. REALLY.

i haven't felt i wasted so much of precious god-given time in a terribly long time, ok fine, not since JC anyway. i always had plans to do everytime of the day, 24 hours was never enough in one day for me..actually then again maybe it's just coz' i like the feeling of being busy, of rushing from place to place, of squeezing every possible thing into the shortest time possible, i like that feeling. NUTS, you may think BUT i like that feeling, and when you eventually complete and fulfill the goal, the sense of accomplishment is undescrible. yes maybe that's why exactly like lifang, i really really enjoy the first few months of J2..i was so busy that weekends would be the time for me to crash out, and i didn't have to feel gulity. so i've decided that when i get back after my holidays, i'll take keyboard lessons, pilates, how to make coffee, my driving license and yes, possibly a job. that would fill my pain..ah, aspirations. just wonder if the procrastinator monster would come get me.

i think the only nice person whom i can click with in the house, who's alot like me is Mrs. Smiley. she's so nice, she made Barley for me, left a note under my door. thats why i'm going to buy her something before i fly back home, she's so sweet. so motherly, i think she's doing a terrific job considering that she claims that she never did cook back home, she was a go-getter career-minded sorta woman. quite cool.

i think i'll be wonderfully happy if 10 years down the road, i'll be a like-minded, stressed out, high flying career woman. a mini, holidays for daddy and mummy, shopping sprees at mango, fcuk and tiffany diamonds and yes, uni education for yanyi and yanling for as long as they want, wherever they want. YES. i could deal with that. time for gym, pilate classes, painting classes would do nicely too. maybe i'll buy over a starbucks outlet.