iced. hazelnut. latte

i feel SICK, ok wait correction, i am sick. yes i AM sick..i've got this throbbing headache, that wouldn't go away probably a result of the many sleepless nights that i've been having where i just CANNOT get to sleep and if i do, i always end up dreaming..bah i tried running it off, but alas to no avail..it was temporal, if only i can keep on running and running, till my knees are in so much pain, and i'm wheezing so much that the headache would become negligent. but yet again, i need to run coz' if i don't, i'll end up aching all over..back, knees..i don't know what's up with my body anymore...

if i owned a private jet and 2 million dollars, i would fly home right now and fly right back just to take my papers.

my papers are next week and i have no idea what i'm doing with my time.
i not really sure if i think i'm overconfident, or i reckon the paper is easy, because i'm definitely not studying as much as i think i'm supposed to be. i'm really tired that's about it i think..
ok maybe i ought to stop thinking for a bit..MAYBE all the thinking's giving me the headache..yes probably that..ought to load myself with paracetamol and jump into bed..

BUT of course,

there's always the issue of the gulity conscience that would nag at me and question why i am sleeping in bed when i've got papers next week. Actually, i reckon i just need to get out of the house for the day, it's getting rather CLAUSTROPHOBIC..being in my room all the time. i thought maybe putting my clothes in the laundry would help BUT there was no space on the rack, so that ruined by plans. actually a good nice cup of iced coffee would help, but the closest is 8 hours away..so i'm just going to cringe my teeth and HOPE it'll pass
maybe i ought buy sleeping tablets soon..load myself up with paracetamol, or do something useful like write a song, or get my stupid driving license. sighs..HELP

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