WHY WHY WHY WHY

Would someone please tell me if my written english is so bad that it warrants someone to come up to me and ask me if i wanted to apply for special english exemptions for my upcoming exams? WOULD SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME? sighs...my history tutor came up to me today and asked if i wanted to apply for special exemptions in my exams, exemptions in the sense that i'll have half an hour extra and i can bring an english dictionary along with me..I'M SO DISCOURAGED really...i mean it's like it puts me on the same level of those people who just have the most basic grasp of english..
I'm so scared to write now..isn't writing a way that you express yourself? isn't it a method of expressing your ideas? i use to enjoy writing and now i'm not so sure i do anymore..first essay classes and now this..i really hope it's all a misunderstanding and she mixed me up with someone else, you know how this ang mohs are..but for the FIRST time i'm so afraid that i'll fail history..i enjoyed the subject so much but again, i'm not so sure anymore..WHY'S life like that? why does bad things have to happen when things are going well?? can someone answer me please???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? I need some form of answer, i need to pacify the doubts I have of my abilities..WHY???? WILL SOMEONE GIVE ME AN ANSWER?? HOW CAN I POSSIBLY BE A LAWYER IF MY ENGLISH SUCKS?!

-S.O.B-